thankfully i have this blog to pour out whatever things i need to. First of all, its about the house that i am staying in. It used to be a lively, brightly-coloured paint wall and very spacious as i can easily navigate to where ever i want. However, a few years ago, things changed. The house was no longer lively and everything seems so dull. Although the house is super big, but when things came in. It became too cosy. More furniture came in and the space that i can navigate myself to move around is so limited. Although new furniture came in and i felt happy but the space is damn limited. Every corner, every pillar, every inch, is packed with stuffs. Some are antique and some are new. If it is nice and it give a feel of a modern look, i don't mind. But its vice versa ! Sad to say, i don't feel like living in this house anymore. The once lively atmosphere is no longer there. The furnitures are not well arranged like it used to be. Now, there are abit here and there. Scattering all over the house. The only time that it will look nice and give a modern feeling is when festivals are coming. Other than that, it will be like a home with furnitures not well arranged. Although my mum is active in changing the house concept, but the KEY problem is, whenever she changed the concept, she push all the furnitures to the centre of the house and from there, she'll visualize and imagine how will it look like if the furniture were to be placed down there. Once she's ok with it, she will stick on to it. As for the other furnitures, she'll play around with it. push here and there. OMG ! And the worst thing, she still keep all the old stuffs, like the toys i used to have when i was little. I told her this, " why must u keep all this when we no longer use it or play it or toss with it ? you can donate it to the mosque if you want or you can give to the less fortunate ones. Even the 2 little brothers no longer play with it." I felt guilty after saying this. Maybe she has her own reasons to keep it. But she's doing it at the wrong time. The house no longer look like a house, but a toy kingdom where all the toys are being kept. That's what pissed me off. I want a house that is spacious and have a modern look. Not a toy house. And i can't study well in this kind of situation. After she changed the concept, it will stay stationery for at most 2 days. Afterwhich, the 2 little bros will sort of fight, you know little kids, tends to be hero someday, but its all in their imagination. They will mess up the house and the other 5 people in this house will ignore the situation and mind their own business. Come on man. This is your own house ! get a life and clean this mess !
Secondly, my bedroom. im happy with the way it is today. Its because i maintain the cleanliness of my room. Im not bragging about me being neat and tidy or whatever u can think of. But this will determine what type of person you'll be in the future. But im lacking of one thing. Study table it is ! I have to bring my stuffs over to my sis room and study. Its very inconvenient. I prefer to have a study table in my own room. Just asked dad to buy me a study table at ikea, hopefully he will. If not, can forget about me getting good results. The fact is, the environment that im studying in will determine how good or bad i get. A room which is clean and well kept will not bother you when you study. Meaning, you can fully focus on the subject that u are studying. A room which has too many things will keep u distracted because halfway studying, you will tend to clean it up and then resume with studies. But all your concentration are gone !
im freak up with this !
I hope my mum or dad would read this and clear all the unimportant stuff at home someday hopefully before my major exams as it will lead me to go crazy. Dun blame me for being unreasonable.
changing the course of my life
into something special...